BY CHIDERAH MONDE / NEW YORK DAILY NEWS
The actress and new mom explains to Esquire that the comfort of faith helps her survive in Hollywood.
Megan Fox tells Esquire that she took a step away from the spotlight because she ‘felt powerless’ for being only known as a sex symbol.
“It feels like a lot of energy coming through the top of your head,” Fox said the February issue of Esquire magazine. She says she began speaking in tongues around the age of 8, when she attended a church in Tennessee.
“Your whole body is filled with this electric current,” Fox, 26, explains. “And you just start speaking, but you’re not thinking because you have no idea what you’re saying. Words are coming out of your mouth, and you can’t control it. The idea is that it’s a language that only God understands. It’s the language that’s spoken in heaven.”
The new mom gets into detail about her beliefs and the Bible, and explains the comfort she finds in church — which she uses to escape the madness of Hollywood.
“I can’t stand pills,” she said. “I don’t like drinking. I don’t like feeling out of control. You have to understand, there I feel safe. I was raised to believe that you’re safe in God’s hands. But I don’t feel safe with myself.”
Fox, who recently began to remove the tattoo she had of Marilyn Monroe, also said she doesn’t want to emulate the iconic blond bombshell because she doesn’t want that kind of life.
“I started reading about her and realized that her life was incredibly difficult,” she explained. “It’s like when you visualize something for your future. I didn’t want to visualize something so negative.”
“She wasn’t powerful at the time. She was sort of like Lindsay (Lohan). She was an actress who wasn’t reliable, who almost wasn’t insurable … She had all the potential in the world, and it was squandered,” she added. “I’m not interested in following in those footsteps.”
Now, Fox admires a different Hollywood icon: Ava Gardner.
“She had power. She was a broad,” Fox told the magazine of the late actress. “She got what she wanted and said what she needed.”